.... and we'll see how pretentious you are.

I needa learn how to contain my anger,tell me how!!!!

Apparently,the niu year hasn't been good. Yeah,only the first day of it and I'm feeling angry. WTH. It should be a happy occasion for all,but not for me and definitely not for my mom and dad !!!!!!!!!! It should be a day for one family to stay together. NOT WITH ONE GONE WITH SOME LION DANCE TROUPE!!!!!FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU **************************!!!!!!! KINSHIP KINSHIP KINSHIP!!!! WHAT ELSE IS MORE VALUABLE THAN THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Two of my cousins haven't visited my dad and uncle for many years already. My dad got so fed-up with them and called them to reprimand them. What's their excuse? They've got work. So? Couldn't they just give my dad and uncle a call? Totally nothing from them ya know,in years! Mind you,they are very educated people,university graduates. So,after their graduation,they think that they're some big shot people who can put on airs.

As some of you may know,my dream is to go to university. I remember yuhui asking me what was my dream and my reply was entering univerisity. So she laughed and said I was lame. -.- May all of you be my witness,if after my graduation I become too proud or arrogant,I shall hereby give you the permission to slap me hard on my face. ;D hehe. Give me a bloody awakening call.

4 years ago,I entered BNSS,with a thought,"I must do better than PSLE" in mind. 4 years later,I did it. For the first time,I set foot into early adulthood.Another 4 years from now,I will be an adult. Time has robbed my childish years away. For me,I've definitely learnt a lot. From friendships to fillial piety. From failures to distinctions. From relatioships to kinships. Lucky those small little kids,they're enjoying every moment in their life right now,but it won't last forever. How many more 4 years must I wait to experience a really happy and blissful and COMPLETE family? Yes,it's complete,I have both parents,I have brother,I have uncle. But it's incomplete,morally. Some people may be from a single parent family,but they're happy! They feel complete! I'll just have to wait. Wait for time to rob my youth,rob my adulthood,rob my old age and finally rob my death away. I'll probably never experience it.

I think many people yearn for a happy family,but the determination is just not there to establish the foundation of a happy family. It's just like a student hoping,wishing,praying earnestly every day for straight As but with no determination and work done, hence,100% talk,0% action.

I think this niu year is just another year.